Thoughts on being a dreamer.

I’m a self confessed dreamer. I dream of the future constantly, be it what university I go to, my perfect wedding or what country I want to explore next. And around 8 times out of 10 it will be the latter; I’m in love with travelling, with visiting new places and meeting new people. I’m obsessed with finding out the history of places, the ins and outs of the world – it’s amazing. Recently I ordered a cork pin board and a world map to mount on my wall (thanks Dad), and I’ve begun to pin small flags on each country I’ve visited. Of course I’m only 17 and I only have 8 flags on there at the moment, but as time passes and as I grow up I want to visit as many places as I can and have as many crazy, intense, magical experiences as possible. I plan on surrounding the map on my board with memoirs of the different trips I’ve been on; maybe a little photo, or a bus or concert ticket. It scares and confuses me that some people are content with staying in one spot for the rest of their lives, not wanting to explore other horizons or go on adventures with their friends. I mean, each to their own of course – we should all do what makes us happy. But there’s so much more out there than any of us could ever imagine, there’s so many memories just waiting to be made, and I for one can’t wait to go out there and live out the dreams that – right now - I can only imagine.

Thoughts on forming your own opinions.

If you’ve read my blog before you’ll probably know that I enjoy voicing my personal opinions on certain aspects of life, and as you can tell by the title of this blog post I even have an opinion on opinions. There are certain guidelines I like to follow when forming an opinion or voicing an opinion.

I think that a lot of people tend to follow their parents, or their friends opinions on certain things. This could be what they like to do in their spare time, their religion, or which political party they vote for. I definitely agree that we should listen to other people’s opinions and I think it’s very important to hear what other people think and have to say, and to learn that some people are going to have different opinions to yours. However, listening and taking into account someone’s point of view on a matter is very different to just agreeing and copying their argument if you don’t necessarily believe in it. I personally know for a fact that I don’t agree with my parents and some of my friends on certain issues, and this could be because my parents have had different experiences to me, and because my friends and I have grown up in different circumstances. Despite their opinions differing with mine, it doesn’t mean that we don’t get along and can’t discuss these matters; it just means that we have to be accepting of each other’s opinions, and agree to disagree a lot of the time.

I’m proud to say that I have been able to form opinions on a lot of matters by myself, and I take pride in researching and educating myself in an issue before I form a definite opinion or even consider voicing it. When voicing an opinion I have to make sure I 100% agree with what I am saying, because if someone contradicts me I have to be able to form an argument I believe in. There is also the issue of voicing an unpopular opinion which other people don’t agree with, and therefore you may loose certain friendships – if the issue is important to both of you and you feel very adamant either way  - or there may be tensions within certain relationships. I am all for people voicing their own opinions and enjoy listening to what other people think on issues around the world, however I am hesitant to listen if the opinion isn’t genuine or the person doesn’t fully understand what they are talking about. 

I know that I do this – I form an opinion on something (usually political – admittedly) which I don’t really know the ins and outs of, and if I have really taken an interest in the issue I will look it up later on and read up about it (usually to find out my opinion was completely wrong – admittedly). However, I know and understand that I am not qualified to voice these opinions because I don’t really know what I’m talking about, so I keep them to myself for when/if I feel comfortable to speak about it. It’s all right me voicing my opinion on ‘#YesAllWomen’ or ‘The taboo of mental health’, because for the most part I have a good idea of what I’m talking about, and I feel comfortable with them. But if I feel the least bit unsure about an issue I have some sort of opinion on, I won’t voice it because of the fear of later realizing how wrong I was, and regretting voicing an opinion that wasn’t really mine. I just feel that people should take their time to form their own opinions, by listening and talking and reading and researching an issue they are interested in and maybe they’d surprise themselves on what they truly believe and stand for, and who they really are. 

Thoughts on the loss of a loved one.

You can – and probably will – loose a lot of things in life, and these can range from you loosing your favourite jumper, or your phone charger, to the loss of a loved one be it through the end of a relationship or due to the end of their life. This blog post will be focused around the latter, however some of these points may be used in other instances – although I’m not sure how helpful this would be when trying to find a charger!

Recently my family suffered a massive loss when my granddad sadly passed away in January, and I don’t want to go into anything too personal, but his death has definitely affected each and every one of us in a different way, and we have all tried to cope and mourn in our own separate ways. Being sad and mourning over the death of a loved one is perfectly normal and something which everyone should do, because it is healthy to be sad, and cry. However there comes a point when you have to realise that despite your loss and your sadness, the world still keeps turning and the birds will keep singing. Personally, that is probably the hardest thing I had to get my head around because it didn’t feel okay that I was still doing the things I enjoyed, and I was still going to sixth form, and I was still going out with my friends like nothing had changed. It felt wrong.

Thinking about it now with a clearer mind than I had a few months ago, I know now that my granddad wouldn’t have wanted me to mope around and cry all the time over him. Doing things that I knew would have made him proud is really what helped keep me smiling, and what kept me motivated through the mock exams I was facing at the time. Music was another thing that helped me – and other family members – deal with what had happened. I don’t know how because I don’t understand it myself, but for some reason when I connect with a song – especially the lyrics – and the way the song itself is pieced together, it relaxes me like nothing else can and helps me reflect on events which have happened and my thoughts and feelings around them. Music speaks to a lot of people in a way that the rest of the world doesn’t.

I am not saying that by listening to music and carrying on with your day-to-day life that you shouldn’t think about your loss and you shouldn’t mourn over it, however I am also not saying that your loss is all that should be on your mind so much so that you over think it. There has to be a healthy balance between the two in order for you to mourn in a healthy way, without it taking over your life and making you ill.

Mourning is a long process, and for a lot of people we will always mourn the loss of a loved one. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of my granddad in one way or another, and yet at the same time most of those thoughts and memories don’t make me sad – they make me smile because I know that I will always have those happy memories with him, and I can treasure them forever. 

Thoughts on being happy.

There isn’t a list of rules on ‘how to be happy’, and two different people may not necessarily be happy in the same situation. There’s no real definition of what happiness is or what it feels like – apart from the state of being happy, obviously – and that’s because it’s down to the individual alone to decide whether they are truly happy and what can be done to solve it if they aren’t.

Life isn’t always fair, and everyone goes through times in their life when bad things happen. Be it a death of a loved one, an end to a relationship or friendship, or bad results in a test or exam: disappointment and sadness are natural emotions for us to feel through periods of time in our life. These are inevitable, and for the most part unavoidable, and that isn’t necessarily a bad thing. We need to allow ourselves time to feel down or unhappy, so that we know who’s there for us when we need them, and to notice our happy moments when they do come around.

However I have found that there are things that we can do in order to help ourselves be more happy and positive, and a lot of the time I have found that it’s other people’s negativity that stops me from being completely content. Whether it’s a snide comment on how I look or an opinion I express, or a relationship or friendship going wrong and ending up toxic, the people surrounding us have a lot to do with our mindset. Is this okay or right? No not at all. Should their opinions matter? No not at all. Yet we still let others thoughts on us affect how we think and feel about ourselves.

One thing I have learnt recently is that how people treat you isn’t your decision, but the people you surround yourself with is. Surround yourself with people who are beautiful on the inside rather than basing it around the misconception of what ‘beautiful’ looks like aesthetically. Surround yourself with the people who make you happy, and who respect you, and not those who you have to impress or act differently around. Everyone deserves the chance to be happy, confident and to be surrounded by people who love them for them.

“Count your age by friends, not years. Count your life by smiles, not tears.” – John Lennon

Thoughts on mental health.

Some people might think of mental health as a ‘taboo subject’, and after spending a week on my work placement at Mind I am finding it even more difficult to understand why. Last week at my sixth form, year twelve had to find a work placement that corresponded with something that you are interested in going into in the future. Being interested in mental health and what kind of jobs were involved in the mental health sector, I managed to get a work placement at Mind which is a mental health charity, who aim to provide advice and support to help anyone going through mental health problems.

The fact that some people don’t like talking about mental health worries me more than anything, because everyone has mental health. Mental health is a person’s condition with regard to their psychological and emotional well-being, and whether you feel that you are perfectly fine, or if you are depressed or stressed or anxious, we all have mental health.

I spent a lot of my time with people with mental health problems while at Mind, and these ranged from depression, to self-harm, anxiety, OCD, Asperger syndrome etc. After getting over my nerves on the first morning – which was honestly more to do with meeting new people than anything else – I settled in and found that people with mental health problems are no different to anyone else that I’ve met, they just need a helping hand in certain aspects of life. One word I would use to describe the people I met in my week would be brave. They are so brave and strong, for being able to speak up about their problems, for accepting that they need help, for getting through every day life while going through unimaginable issues, and for fighting to get through their problems. I honestly admire every single one of the people that I met, not for what they are going through, but how they have dealt – or are dealing with – their mental health problems.

I for one feel as though people should be less afraid to speak up about mental health and any problems they might be facing in life. Simply knowing that you’re not alone and that you have someone to talk to can make such a difference on how you look at a situation and how you deal with it. One in four people will go through mental health problems at some point in their life, and some might not even recognise it due to them not being familiar with the symptoms or the help that they can get. Mind is only one charity out of many that helps people with mental health problems; there are various charities all over the world that aim to help people with mental health issues.

Mental health shouldn’t be something we don’t talk about, mental health problems shouldn’t be frowned upon, and the people suffering shouldn’t be over-looked or cast to the side. We are all equal, and we will all go through – or know someone who will go through – mental health problems at some point. We might just not be aware of it. 

Thoughts on what Girl Guiding has done for me.

Thousands of girls all over the world attend groups such as Brownies, Rainbows or Guides. Thousands more are involved in volunteering for these groups so that young girls can grow into amazing young adults and be equipped with the social skills they need to go far in life. I’ve been lucky enough to be involved with Girl Guiding for the past 10 years, and so I thought I would share my experience.

At the age of seven I was lucky enough to find out about the local Brownie group in my area, and along with my friends, I went along and fell completely in love with it. Being a very shy child from a young age made it quite difficult for me to make friends outside of school. Although recognising this, my parents sent me to a lot of extra curriculum activities in order for me to get over this shyness – which in the long run really has helped me!

Due to the group being all girls and due to the friendliness and dedication of the leaders, I quickly became comfortable and a lot more outgoing when I was at Brownies, which in turn helped me to be more outgoing outside of the club as well. Wednesday evenings became my favourite evenings, because for an hour and a half I got to be myself with my best friends and do crazy, fun activities. Once I became too old for Brownies, a few friends and I moved to up to Guides, however I didn’t feel as comfortable and decided that it just wasn’t for me. Instead, I decided to get into the Young Leader side of things.

Due to my mum being an ‘owl’ at my old Brownie group I was lucky enough to go back to Brownies and help out the younger children as and when I pleased. My confidence grew even more as the children were more dependent on me, and I had a lot more responsibility to look after them and help the sessions run smoothly. After doing this for a number of years we heard news of a new Rainbow group starting up in the village, and I immediately volunteered as I felt it was important I got some experience without my mum or family friends being next to me.

Deciding to volunteer at Rainbows is literally one of the best decisions I have made. Having the responsibility to teach and help these young girls grow into the amazing, beautiful women they are capable of becoming is so rewarding and it is honestly a privilege to even be a small part of their childhood. Seeing their faces light up when we teach them a new game, or seeing them go slightly wild when they’re with their friends, or hearing them chatter about their day at school or what they did at the weekend, is a heart warming experience to be a part of.  

Girl Guiding has done so much for me in the 10 years I have been a part of it. It has helped me grow into the confident young woman I am becoming today, and it has taught me to never be ashamed of the person I am and to always stick up for what I believe in. The social skills I learned are invaluable, and the friends and memories I made will always stay with me. For the past 10 years Girl Guiding has been a constant in my life, and I really feel like it won’t end here. Overall this is just a massive thank you to everyone who has been a part of my Girl Guiding experience because without them I honestly don’t think I would be the person I am today.

Thoughts on other people’s opinions.

Everyone has an opinion on something, whether it is there preference on who runs the country, or his or her’s opinion on an outfit you choose to wear. Of course everyone’s opinion is valid and everyone is free to think whatever they want to. But it’s come to a time in my life when I need to think about whose opinions really matters to me? Just to be clear I’m not saying that people shouldn’t be allowed to voice their own opinions because everyone should have freedom of speech, but it’s up to each individual as to who’s opinions they respect or take on board. I think in today’s society we tend to care too much about what other people think rather than just thinking about our own happiness – I know I am definitely guilty of this. To an extent I think that we should take other people’s opinions on board, not to change our own opinions but just to get a more rounded view on a subject and to make a more informed decision in some cases. I’m looking at university choices at the moment as it is coming up to the time in my life when I move away and begin to start my own life, and the courses I am looking at aren’t necessarily the vocational degrees which I have previously looked at. When asking for people’s opinions I haven’t necessarily agreed with the replies they’ve given to me and I have taken a couple very personally. However I’ve realised that most of the time these aren’t personal attacks on me and that they are just opinions, and these opinions will help me make sure the decision I make is what makes me happy. Everyone’s opinions are valid, but at the end of the day it is down to you personally to decide what to do in whatever situation you find yourself in. Whether your decision is right or wrong in the eyes of someone else shouldn’t matter if the decision you make is something that you are happy with and feel the most comfortable with. We shouldn’t get pressured into doing things just to make other people happy because it is the ‘social norm’, not one person’s life is the same as another persons, and if we all did the same things and thought in the same way the world would be a very boring place to live.